Am I Worthy?

So, I am starting my own business...I have my EIN number, but haven't bought any machinery, taken in any work or made any money yet...but I am having my house cleaned...

I am trying so hard to come to terms with it...I feel lazy/spoiled/ecstatic/thrilled/distressed, but de-stressed...I broke my toe, so that makes it easier to justify...but then, why do I have to justify it? 

The crazy thing is in my younger years, I used to clean houses - I even had my own business for a while (although I never made any money) back in the day...so of all people why should I enjoy it???


I am no spring chicken...I have paid my dues, I made tough decisions and stuck to them, I have worked my butt off since I was 16yrs old (and before that at my house) - if I have the money and want to get my house cleaned shouldn't I get to without feeling like pooh about it?

I say NO to feeling bad about it...I am going to embrace it!  I am putting money back into the economy and providing jobs right?  I would rather spend my time cooking healthy food for my family, raising my son to be a productive member of society and being creative with quilting and writing...

I say YES to feeling much better about my house being cleaned even if I didn't do it...Whoooo hooo!!!